Selfish, childish, pessimistic, whiny post is about to begin. You have been warned.

For the past month I have been planing to attend a Labyrinth Ball in Atlanta for my birthday. All my closest friends know I fell in love with masquerade balls the moment I saw that scene in the movie and its been a childhood dream to attend one ever since. This one happened to be on my birthday and it was only 4 hours away in a city where I had a friend willing to show us around. I couldn’t think of a more perfect way to celebrate turning 24. So I mentioned it to a few friends who said they would go and I got everything in order. Reserved the hotel,  purchased event tickets, got masks for everyone, altered an old prom dress and baught lots of pretty, sparkly stuff to go with my costume.

Two weeks ago my best friend said she had a church thing to attend, a week ago someone said they can’t make it to Atlanta till 10pm, a few days ago another didn’t know if they could get the time off work even though she kinda invited herself to come along, one keeps ignoring me and this morning I get a message from the only person really excited about the trip saying she can’t go because theres a mandatory meeting at the convention she started volunteering for.

There goes my entire birthday weekend. Why am I not surprised that once again I make plans and it fails horribly. I was so ecstatic that it was finally going to happen. Now I’ve just wasted lots of time and money on things I can no longer use. My birthday is exactly one week away and at this point I really don’t care. Now I have to cancel the hotel reservation, try to sell some of this costume stuff on ebay and hope someone wants to buy tickets to the ball because looks like I won’t need them anymore.

I am extremely hurt and disappointed. I know its stupid and selfish of me because this trip was slightly expensive to some of my friends but I never really ask for much and told everyone I didn’t want any presents, all I wanted was this. They acted so eager to accommodate when I first mentioned it. Now im slightly heartbroken and I have to go through all this headache and stress to get my money back.

To quote the movie, Its not fair. No, it isn’t. But thats the way it is.Oh well, at least I have an entire weekend off work.

May, you certainly have not been a very good month to me but tomorrow starts June, hopefully good luck and fortune will come with it. For now time to put these negative thoughts aside and get some rest so I can face a new day *and month* with optimistic smiles.

I strongly dislike overly dramatic people. The ones who act like bad luck is permanently glued to them. Its not. It only seems that way because of your mind set. Their issues are almost always self inflicted. They take a bad event that happened to them and by their own actions make it worse. Im done trying to fix or ease what they did because of poor judgement and negative thinking. We all have issues, sometimes no one but ourself can fix them. Im not going to keep attempting to repair leaks when all you do is poke another hole the second my back is turned. Change your mindset, change your life. Trust me, I know people who are in desperate need of change.

I don’t know why people constantly come to me for help with their problems when they never really take my advice.

I don’t even take my own advice half of the time, maybe thats why people never listen to me.

People only want someone to vent to and hear them out I guess.